A while since I have been here

Wow it has been awhile since I blogged.  My life is utter chaos right now and I am trying really hard to maintain my sanity.  As most of you know, I am enrolled in a paramedic program for the next two semesters.  On top of that I am working pretty much full time hours and raising 3 boys.  This week I went and did the unthinkable....I got sick.  Severe bronchitis with a touch of pneumonia.  THAT WAS NOT FUN.  I couldn't breathe, I couldn't sleep and the meds they gave helped neither right away.  Now for any mom to get sick means family crisis. But when you are a student, a working mom and a mother of multiples, getting sick is a crime.  Though my hubby did take off work one day to care for me, which helped out tremendously, I am now two classes behind in PHTLS which means I will probably not get that certification.  That disappoints me more than anything right now, as I wanted to do this and do it all.  I am trying really hard to keep my chin up and let God lead me through these obstacles, but it gets so hard sometimes.  Like tonight, when I find out we have to pay $400 more dollars on our new roof and we don't really have that.  Or yesterday, when I had to miss class because I was working and got a call that kept me at the hospital for over an hour and half.  Patience is not a virtue I possess, though I really need to be working on that one.  Resilience is something I hope to have, but sometimes I feel like that isn't part of me either.  Well, I will push through and hope that something is shining at the end of this tunnel....right now all I hear is screaming.